but i do know one thing:
where you are is where i belong
i do know where you go is where i want to be
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
HEY, it's yr FUNERAL, MAMA
the SKY is blue, the GRASS is brown
my head is BURIED inside this helmet
and the ever present THREAT of parasites
so TAKE MY HAND, let's get these motors running!
so you DRIIIIIVE red (you drive red)
and i'll DRIIIIVE black (i'll drive black)
(we'll see who's machine was recently serviced)
we'll slit these rows of goodyears like a knife
we don't fear, we don't fear, we don't fear, we don't fear, we don't fear THESE MACHIIIIIIIIINES
i got the scoop, i got the scoop
and it doesn't look SO GOOD, so good for you
so you DRIIIIIVE red (you drive red)
and i'll DRIIIIIIVE black (i'll drive black)
(we'll see who's machine was recently serviced)
we'll CUT these rows of goodyears like a KNIFE
like a knife, like a knife, yeah
we'll cut this row of GOODYEARS like a knife
so you drive red (you drive red)
and I'll drive black (i'll drive black)
(we'll see who's machine was recently serviced)
we'll cut this row of goodyears like a knife.
my head is BURIED inside this helmet
and the ever present THREAT of parasites
so TAKE MY HAND, let's get these motors running!
so you DRIIIIIVE red (you drive red)
and i'll DRIIIIVE black (i'll drive black)
(we'll see who's machine was recently serviced)
we'll slit these rows of goodyears like a knife
we don't fear, we don't fear, we don't fear, we don't fear, we don't fear THESE MACHIIIIIIIIINES
i got the scoop, i got the scoop
and it doesn't look SO GOOD, so good for you
so you DRIIIIIVE red (you drive red)
and i'll DRIIIIIIVE black (i'll drive black)
(we'll see who's machine was recently serviced)
we'll CUT these rows of goodyears like a KNIFE
like a knife, like a knife, yeah
we'll cut this row of GOODYEARS like a knife
so you drive red (you drive red)
and I'll drive black (i'll drive black)
(we'll see who's machine was recently serviced)
we'll cut this row of goodyears like a knife.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Celebrating the Best Song in the World, in the Best Album in the World, by the Best Band in the World
And so she wakes upin time to break down
She left a note up on the dresser
and she's right on time
You don't know anythingright or wrong
I said I knowand she said so
I wanna panic
but I've had it so I go
You don't owe anything to anyone
But don't take your life'cause it's all that you've got
You'd be better off just up and leaving
if you don't think they will stop
And when you wake up
everything is gonna be fine
I guarantee that you wake in a better place
in a better time
So you're tired of living
feel like you might give in
well don't
it's not your time
Looking through the paper today
looking for a specific page
Don't wanna find her full name followed by dates
because when i left her alone
she made a sound, like a moan
"You're known by everyone for everything you've done"
Fuck buying flowers for graves
I'd rather buy you a one way non-stop
to anywherefind anyone
do anything
forget and start again, love
She said she won't go
(and that's that)
It hurts too much to stand by
you've got to stop and draw a line
Everyone here has to choose a side tonight
the moment of truth is haunting you
Don't forget your familyregardless what you choose to do
You can't decide
and they're screaming "why won't you?"
I'll start the engine but I can't take this ride for you
I'll draw your bath and I'll load your gun
but I hope so bad that you bathe and hunt
Annie's tired of forgetting about today
and always planning for tomorrow (tomorrow)
Tomorrow and she says, "The saddest day I came across was
when I learned that life goes on without me" (without me)
Without me and she says, "If everyone has someone else,
then I ain't got nobody's love to save me" (save me)
Save me, and she says "I think I'll pass away tonight,
'cause it seems I'll never get it right, it's just me" (just reality)
And when you wake upeverything is gonna be fine
Guarantee that you wake in a better place
in a better timeSo you're tired of living
feel like you might give in
well don't
It's not your time
Annie says she wouldn't mind
if they never find a cure for all her problems (her problems)
Problems and she says, as long as she has someone near to make it clear
she does not need to solve them (solve them)
Solve them and she says, "oh, this loneliness is killing me,
it's filling me with anger and resentment (resentment)
Resentment and she says, "I'm turning into someone that I never thought I'd have to be again"
And when you wake upeverything is gonna be fine
Guarantee that you wake up in a better place
in a better time
So you're tired of living
feel like you might give in
well don't
It's not your time
Annie's tired of forgetting about today
and always planning for tomorrow
Tommorow and she says, "The saddest day i came acrosss was
when I learned that life goes on without me"
Without me and she says, "If everyone has someone else,
then I ain't got nobody's love to save me"
Save me and she says, "I think I'll pass away tonight,
'cause it seems I'll never get it right, it's just me" (just reality)
And when you wake up
everything is going to be fine
I guarantee that you wake in a better place
and in a better timeSo you're tired of living
and you feel like you might give in
well don't
It's not your time
And even if it was so
I wouldn't let you go
you could run run run run but I will follow close
Someday you will say "that's it, that's all"
but I'll be waiting there with open arms to break your fall
I know that you think that you're on your own
but just know that I'm here
and I'll lead you home
if you let me
She said "forget me"
but I can't
She left a note up on the dresser
and she's right on time
You don't know anythingright or wrong
I said I knowand she said so
I wanna panic
but I've had it so I go
You don't owe anything to anyone
But don't take your life'cause it's all that you've got
You'd be better off just up and leaving
if you don't think they will stop
And when you wake up
everything is gonna be fine
I guarantee that you wake in a better place
in a better time
So you're tired of living
feel like you might give in
well don't
it's not your time
Looking through the paper today
looking for a specific page
Don't wanna find her full name followed by dates
because when i left her alone
she made a sound, like a moan
"You're known by everyone for everything you've done"
Fuck buying flowers for graves
I'd rather buy you a one way non-stop
to anywherefind anyone
do anything
forget and start again, love
She said she won't go
(and that's that)
It hurts too much to stand by
you've got to stop and draw a line
Everyone here has to choose a side tonight
the moment of truth is haunting you
Don't forget your familyregardless what you choose to do
You can't decide
and they're screaming "why won't you?"
I'll start the engine but I can't take this ride for you
I'll draw your bath and I'll load your gun
but I hope so bad that you bathe and hunt
Annie's tired of forgetting about today
and always planning for tomorrow (tomorrow)
Tomorrow and she says, "The saddest day I came across was
when I learned that life goes on without me" (without me)
Without me and she says, "If everyone has someone else,
then I ain't got nobody's love to save me" (save me)
Save me, and she says "I think I'll pass away tonight,
'cause it seems I'll never get it right, it's just me" (just reality)
And when you wake upeverything is gonna be fine
Guarantee that you wake in a better place
in a better timeSo you're tired of living
feel like you might give in
well don't
It's not your time
Annie says she wouldn't mind
if they never find a cure for all her problems (her problems)
Problems and she says, as long as she has someone near to make it clear
she does not need to solve them (solve them)
Solve them and she says, "oh, this loneliness is killing me,
it's filling me with anger and resentment (resentment)
Resentment and she says, "I'm turning into someone that I never thought I'd have to be again"
And when you wake upeverything is gonna be fine
Guarantee that you wake up in a better place
in a better time
So you're tired of living
feel like you might give in
well don't
It's not your time
Annie's tired of forgetting about today
and always planning for tomorrow
Tommorow and she says, "The saddest day i came acrosss was
when I learned that life goes on without me"
Without me and she says, "If everyone has someone else,
then I ain't got nobody's love to save me"
Save me and she says, "I think I'll pass away tonight,
'cause it seems I'll never get it right, it's just me" (just reality)
And when you wake up
everything is going to be fine
I guarantee that you wake in a better place
and in a better timeSo you're tired of living
and you feel like you might give in
well don't
It's not your time
And even if it was so
I wouldn't let you go
you could run run run run but I will follow close
Someday you will say "that's it, that's all"
but I'll be waiting there with open arms to break your fall
I know that you think that you're on your own
but just know that I'm here
and I'll lead you home
if you let me
She said "forget me"
but I can't
Saturday, April 14, 2007
YOU'RE ACTING LIKE A LUNATIC.
My first order of business is to figger out why the tabs at the top of the page that say things like "Create a Blog" or "Sign In" or "Create a Post" are in Swedish.
My second order of business is to congratulate anybody who has read this or is reading this or ever will read this on any awards they won at the Young Authors' Conference. Good on you, folks.
My third order of business is to describe. What I am about to describe is ironic, to me. Last night, I was thinking to myself, "Wow. I think I'm totally over everything. It's been so long since I cut, or cried to myself for no reason at all, or stayed awake all night with my mouth hanging open, staring at the ceiling, feeling nothing. Or felt overwhelmed with depression. Or, you know, had any reason to think I'm bipolar. It must have just been a weird time of my life." And then my mind and body responded this afternoon, "GUESS AGAIN, MOTHERFUCKER!!!"
So. I spent three hours today crying AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. The littlest thing set me off. I was getting ready to go to the art show in the Fire Island lighthouse (which I ended up skipping, unfortunately), and I've been saying this a lot lately, but, really, I have no clothes to wear. I don't look good in anything I have. I wear the same things over and over. I've lost interest in my clothes, and recently I've really wanted to be more creative. It seems the harder I try, the less creative I am. So I was getting ready to go, I had no clothes, my hair looked TERRIBLE, Steve was in the downstairs bathroom so I couldn't get a nail clipper, Mom was in the upstairs bathroom so I could do my hair and maybe boost my self-esteem. So I started getting frusterated, a little bit.
And then I cryed. For three hours. And gave myself a migraine. And envied Donnie Darko, who had pills to control his fucked-up-ed-ness.
Yeah. I guessed again, motherfucker.
This sucks. Again.
FUCK.
My second order of business is to congratulate anybody who has read this or is reading this or ever will read this on any awards they won at the Young Authors' Conference. Good on you, folks.
My third order of business is to describe. What I am about to describe is ironic, to me. Last night, I was thinking to myself, "Wow. I think I'm totally over everything. It's been so long since I cut, or cried to myself for no reason at all, or stayed awake all night with my mouth hanging open, staring at the ceiling, feeling nothing. Or felt overwhelmed with depression. Or, you know, had any reason to think I'm bipolar. It must have just been a weird time of my life." And then my mind and body responded this afternoon, "GUESS AGAIN, MOTHERFUCKER!!!"
So. I spent three hours today crying AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. The littlest thing set me off. I was getting ready to go to the art show in the Fire Island lighthouse (which I ended up skipping, unfortunately), and I've been saying this a lot lately, but, really, I have no clothes to wear. I don't look good in anything I have. I wear the same things over and over. I've lost interest in my clothes, and recently I've really wanted to be more creative. It seems the harder I try, the less creative I am. So I was getting ready to go, I had no clothes, my hair looked TERRIBLE, Steve was in the downstairs bathroom so I couldn't get a nail clipper, Mom was in the upstairs bathroom so I could do my hair and maybe boost my self-esteem. So I started getting frusterated, a little bit.
And then I cryed. For three hours. And gave myself a migraine. And envied Donnie Darko, who had pills to control his fucked-up-ed-ness.
And Mom, of course, flipped a shit. She's like, "Tell me what's wrong. (I told her I didn't know, nothing was wrong, because I didn't, and nothing was.) Oh, it's Number Two (she numbers my moods, the fucking bitch). Number Two without any warning. You're such a lunatic. You're such a freak. If you have no idea why you're so upset, we have to go get emergency help."
Her calling me a lunatic and a freak made me feel really awesome. It helped so much. More than fucking Prozac.
Yeah. I guessed again, motherfucker.
This sucks. Again.
FUCK.
Friday, April 13, 2007
AOTD: 4/13/07 - Mika - Life in Cartoon Motion
“Life in Cartoon Motion” is the debut album of a Lebanese singer, Mika. He grew up in a musical family and took opera lessons. Other stuff happened? He refuses to respond to any questions about his sexual orientation, but I think his music says it all. He’s very flamboyant and giddy. He uses falsetto a lot which is amazing. Love that. He sounds a bit like Elton John and a lot like Freddie Mercury. People title him “this generation’s Freddie Mercury” but I think that’s just plain dumb. “Big Girl [You Are Beautiful]” reminds me a lot of “Fat Bottomed Girl” by Queen. So yeah.
I really like “Love Today” and that’s about all that stands out for me at the moment. I’ve only just downloaded it. Figured it was time for another Album of the Day. Enjoy!
(I was going to show the track listing too, but I think it’s messed up…)
[This is ripped from another forum I post at, but I figured you guys who don't already have the album may want to have it, too.]
Thursday, April 12, 2007
pretty pictures you've got there, henry
http://www.cnn.com/2007/SHOWBIZ/books/04/12/obit.vonnegut/index.html
Kurt Vonnegut has died at the age of 84
Kurt Vonnegut has died at the age of 84
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Mika
If you want to hear an amazing artist and catch a glimpse of our generation's Freddy Mercury, check out Mika's debut album "Life in Cartoon Motion." My favorite songs on it are "Grace Kelly," "Billy Brown," "Big Girl (You Are Beautiful)," "Happy Ending," and just about every other song on the album.
SERIOUSLY. He's pretty much my new best friend. It's AWESOME.
SERIOUSLY. He's pretty much my new best friend. It's AWESOME.
Saturday, April 7, 2007
Run away from the stench in the trenches!
I've been thinking for the past couple of weeks about how weird it is that we don't consider parts of our body ourselves. We'll say, "Ow, my foot hurts." But your foot is YOU. You ARE your foot. So you should really say, "Ow, I hurt."
Does anybody get me?
"I hate my thighs" is "I hate myself."
Oh, my. I just realized I could use this to my advantage. Instead of saying "My _________," I'll say "me" or "I." So the next time I complain about my appearance, instead of saying, "Damn, my hair sucks today," I'll say, "I suck today." BECAUSE I DON'T SUCK. AND I DON'T HATE MYSELF. SO I'LL STOP SAYING THOSE THINGS.
Hey, I think it's a smart idea.
Does anybody get me?
"I hate my thighs" is "I hate myself."
Oh, my. I just realized I could use this to my advantage. Instead of saying "My _________," I'll say "me" or "I." So the next time I complain about my appearance, instead of saying, "Damn, my hair sucks today," I'll say, "I suck today." BECAUSE I DON'T SUCK. AND I DON'T HATE MYSELF. SO I'LL STOP SAYING THOSE THINGS.
Hey, I think it's a smart idea.
Friday, April 6, 2007
Getting Off My Chest, The Story Ends
I'm this post because:
1. I'm bored
2. We need a new post
3. I haven't seen half the people in the Garage since last friday
How's everyone's vacation going? Mines alright. I earned about 60 bucks working for nick's dad for a day. It feels good to earn some money. I got a haircut today. It's a bit shorter than usual, though john couldn't really tell i had got one. I also got new clothes. My sister was supposed to be shopping for a dress for the family easter party. I got a couple pairs of jeans, two shirts and two jackets. That's what I'm wearing for the easter party on sunday. Screw the dressing up. I got a couple books too. This book called Lamb by Christopher Moore. Pretty funny. Doesn't beat down on Jesus much, but that doesn't stop it from being funny. I played guitar hero 2 at pat's house. that was fun. I found a keyboard in my attic. First chance I'm not feeling lazy, I'll start practicing it. I uninstalled World of Warcraft because I think I may have messed up on 3 tests and a project because of it. I beat Freedom Fighters in 6 hours. I wish they made a second one, it would've been pretty good. I've just come to realize that the phrase "out of sight, out of mind" is total bullshit. I played football on monday. We played for 2 hours, tied scores, and I ended up sore for the next 3 days. I started playing Fable. Looking forward to Fable 2. Also Assassin's Creed looks awesome (who wouldn't want a dagger in replace of their ring finger?). Mass Effect and Halo 3 have been long awaited for.
I'm listening to Seven Years by Saosin right now. I'm looping it. It's starting to have meaning to
me. Saosin is a really good band. The lead singer knows how to put his emotions into music. The guitar is also pretty cool sounding. The lyrics in most of their songs mean something to me, that's usually all I really care about. That and the guy has a decent singing voice. The rest let's you sink into the music. Like almost feel like the music is tugging you back and forth through an emotionally deep realm. I'm gonna go get dragged around by them some more. Someone else should tell a bit about their vacation to keep this blog/forum going.
1. I'm bored
2. We need a new post
3. I haven't seen half the people in the Garage since last friday
How's everyone's vacation going? Mines alright. I earned about 60 bucks working for nick's dad for a day. It feels good to earn some money. I got a haircut today. It's a bit shorter than usual, though john couldn't really tell i had got one. I also got new clothes. My sister was supposed to be shopping for a dress for the family easter party. I got a couple pairs of jeans, two shirts and two jackets. That's what I'm wearing for the easter party on sunday. Screw the dressing up. I got a couple books too. This book called Lamb by Christopher Moore. Pretty funny. Doesn't beat down on Jesus much, but that doesn't stop it from being funny. I played guitar hero 2 at pat's house. that was fun. I found a keyboard in my attic. First chance I'm not feeling lazy, I'll start practicing it. I uninstalled World of Warcraft because I think I may have messed up on 3 tests and a project because of it. I beat Freedom Fighters in 6 hours. I wish they made a second one, it would've been pretty good. I've just come to realize that the phrase "out of sight, out of mind" is total bullshit. I played football on monday. We played for 2 hours, tied scores, and I ended up sore for the next 3 days. I started playing Fable. Looking forward to Fable 2. Also Assassin's Creed looks awesome (who wouldn't want a dagger in replace of their ring finger?). Mass Effect and Halo 3 have been long awaited for.
I'm listening to Seven Years by Saosin right now. I'm looping it. It's starting to have meaning to
me. Saosin is a really good band. The lead singer knows how to put his emotions into music. The guitar is also pretty cool sounding. The lyrics in most of their songs mean something to me, that's usually all I really care about. That and the guy has a decent singing voice. The rest let's you sink into the music. Like almost feel like the music is tugging you back and forth through an emotionally deep realm. I'm gonna go get dragged around by them some more. Someone else should tell a bit about their vacation to keep this blog/forum going.
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