well we talked about nowhere, well that sounds like some place i'd like to go

Okay, here go some thoughts:

I can't kill this stupid spider
I have a math test tomorrow i should be studying for, instead I'm playing metroid fusion, stupid me
dashboard (the song) reminds me to be greatful for what i still have (could've been should've been worse than you would ever know)
my sister keeps taking my phone out of my room
i end up not seeing it for days
that's not so bad, i don't always feel like answering the phone
i suck at clipping my finger nails
i'm always under the impression that everything (including fingernails) has to be just right
my eyes feel kind weird after playing video games for two hours
nick got glasses, they took some getting used to
i've been dying the reach you by saosin just played in my head for no apparent reason
i listened to my ipod today from 1st to 6th period without feeling bad about it
i found out that i missed 4 gym classes
i'm pretty sure i didn't miss any
gym isn't included in your overall average anyway
mr wilson's retiring this year i heard
i won't miss him
im chewing a toothpick
there's a problem with the sky tonight
it's that feeling where you feel like somethings a bit off
we've been wondering where you are
i don't know about 'we' but i know i have
wally and veronica kissed in front of people in the hallway because they asked them to
i've now lost any respect for them
i used to think 'hey at least wally could get a girl'
but they also caved into societal pressure,
there's a problem with the sky tonight
i've been dying to reach you
but your extention cord wouldn't reach that far
i think i might've given up on her, pat
not just her, just any chance of trying to be friends
either that or ive come to the realization that it was in 8th grade, and we probably would've been under public scrutiny just as much as wally and veronica
i don't want that, never
sometimes i want to get drunk for the hell of it
i haven't yet
superman's dead by our lady peace sometimes depresses me
i think it's about like, there's nobody to save us from ourselves and something i can't think of the word for, 'fitting in,' 'impressing yourself and friends,' 'how you see yourself.'
"do you worried you're not liked?
how long til you break?
you're happy cause you smile,
but how much can you fake?
an ordinary boy, and ordinary name
but ordinary's just not good enough today"
i had to look up the lyrics for this
i still have a clay ball from this year's caumsett trip
perhaps it's fitting that i remind you all that it's 'this year's'
we probably went there last year, and the year before that, and that and that and that
society sucks, don't try to impress it
you can't have everyone like you
there's comfort in friends
i feel distant from my parents
and my sister
i feel like such an ass to my sister
i can't help it
i seriously can't
you self-centered, self-pitying, amoral, stoic bastard
you are a vacuous soldier of the thrift store gestapo!
just kidding on that last part
i hate wearing clothes with logos
i think i need new bands to listen to
i feel bad for mike
he's got all this shit to deal with in his life
the best line from beerfest was "what now headfuck?"
i have 25 cents left on my itunes gift card
shit
nothing makes sense
so i won't think about it
you can't just not think about something
it will come back to you
for me i fall asleep and wake up thinking about things i just want to avoid
according to noel, cc and ana, i am straight/socially awkward
nick's gay/socially awkward
nicole southerd thinks i'm cute
she actually has a locker next to me
except i have a bottom and she has a top
sophia is so annoying with her top locker right above mine
i get pressed in and cannot turn my head without getting a face/ear full of her crotch
not pleasant
i think alana's on my side with this one
or is it amber?
she can't get to her locker cause i have my door all the way open to give myself the extra room i need to keep at least some of my personal space
my locker door covers her locker door and she has to always say, "excuse me"
at least she's nice about it
divided am i
inside and out
but all the time just a stranger to myself
dripping faucet- catch 22
does anyone know i have a collection of penguins?
i still have my stuffed barney back from when i would drool and chew on anything
i still have the tv remote control i used to teeth on
the company's name is zenith
i don't know if they're around anymore
i wouldn't be surprised if i still had the tv somewhere too.
all of this is pretty much any thought that's coming to my mind as i try to write this
pat said i needed to make a garage post about what i was thinking
this is it
couple more things then ill study
even though sophia and nicole are pretty much the same height, i would gladly have nicole have the top locker above me.
i bet that sounds completely out of character for me
haha, i say that as if ive been acting
i hope not
has anyone done that to me?
probably
i've done it a couple times
im not good at acting though
i can't sing either
my name is yon yonson
i live in wisonsin
i work in a lumber mill there
and the people i meet
as i walk down the street
as what my name is, so i tell them,
"my name is yon yonson,
i live in wisconsin..."
that was from slaughterhouse 5
good book
vonnegut
too bad he died
something about he fell and broke a hip
that really sucks
i hope i don't die like that
i always imagine that i'd fight to my last breath
though i think "fight" and "run" might be the same thing for me
fight or flight instincts
adrenaline
glands above the kidneys
adrenal glands
mother lifting car to save child
adrenaline rush
holy shit she lifted a car
maybe it was a volkswagon
beetle
or beatle
oh hey i get it
the 'beat'les
i bet you're all shocked at me
i'm not surprised
i hope nick gets ungrounded soon so we can have another party at his house
im working for his dad over the summer
hooray
this was fun
but there's still a problem with the sky tonight
don't know where you're going
but i know where you've been
something something something
here i come again
led zeppelin?
run run sweet baby, lord how ther hypnotize
soul of a woman was created for love
dazed and confused, there we go
i think it is
right
so here's to me to you to us to everything before it fell apart
all i can do is walk away, all you're doing is walking away, here's to me to you to us to everything before it fell apart and we're walking, walking walking away
i can't stop feeling as im walking away and i could never understand the things you'd say as we're walking walking walking away
that song seems too cheerful for the lyrics
wow
what's the song, "i walk a lonely road...my shadow's the only one who walks beside me..." i don't know the words "i walk these empty streets..." "i walk alone..."
i have that song in my head when i walk in the hallways sometimes
because that's how it feels sometimes
there's people all around you, but you're still by yourself
it wasn't always like that
it wasn't ever always like that
just sometimes
but once you have something and it's taken away, you want it more
that sounds strangely like something ive heard before
that tv show that pat brought to nick's house
something about some team who'd never won a game, and the coach is like "well once they do win, and lose again, they'll want it more the next time."
something like that
it was a cartoon
some kid with red hair and what i remember as feety pajamas
there was some girl too
the boy video taped the girl's grandpa talking in his sleep once
i think i remember that
i know i didn't just make that up off the top of my head
if i don't force myself to stop writing
ill be doing this for the rest of the night
im just talking aimlessly
kinda like what i've been doing in world history for the past 2 days
im going to go before i go any further discussing this

does this make up for my overdue posting?
will you want me to post again?
ever?
wow i'm starting again.