someone else besides me and cc should create a thread or i am going to pistol whip every last one of you.
well judging from the last couple of threads - we all have our share of problems (whether it be family/feelings for others/etc.) it made me realize that other people don't just live inside their own version of nirvana, immune to any distractions and vices. my emotional output had always been severely capped until i finally looked at the world in a different perspective and realized that i actually am my own person. there is no one out there like me. i am so happy about that. but back to what i was saying before: i was always under the impression until a short while ago that everyone lived in a perfect bubble and i was the only one that suffered from various issues.
it's no "insider's information" that i liked cc near the ending of eighth grade. and then directly thereafter began, what i would say, the biggest infatuation of my life. and to cut a looooooong six months of having mixed emotions and having endless nights of being petrified for reasons beyond my capabilities of reasoning about one person – i picked up on the fact that i had problems to deal with and i couldn’t go on living the way i was. it clicked one day, involuntarily. i slowly understood that other people, too, had problems to deal with. i'm glad i'm not the only one. i always thought i was the only one that had a complex and perplexing mind that would get clogged from a series of worries and doubts and fears. it's not easy, i tell you. the reason i bring this up is not to revel in my past miseries with hopes to glean some spare sympathy. i bring this up to show that i know what it feels like to feel like there is nowhere to turn. i know what it feels like to be tired of living life. i know what it feels like to have to wake up everyday with no sunshine and no warmth. i know what it feels like to be alone in a foreign place with no one to joke around with. i know what it's like to want to press the STOP button time just so you can catch your breath from everything around you. i know what it feels like when the walls are about to close in on you and you regret not preparing for it beforehand.
i recovered. everyone can.
problems are not uncommon. problems have their degrees. problems are not fun.
on a lighter note:
who's up for some ralph's on saturday night. i think thegarage should head out for pizza and lavamonsters on the beach on saturday night to celebrate the forum that cc conceived one night from inside of her digital womb. i also have trimesters the week after and it'll be nice to see everyone before i take them, too.
godspeed and i love you all.
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My digital womb hurts. I mean, it gave birth to The Garage. That's kind of big.
an entire garage. that's big yeah. no doubt.
I had a C-section.
hahahahah
i think i may need to go pistol-whipping tonight.
he's delish.
don't tremble.
If making a commment on your entry will keep me from seeing you in my window later tonight, I will gladly comment:
Nice post.
Good job, Henry!!!
You know what a Tank Pat can be.
PAT THE TANK.
PAT THE TANK.
Anybody seen "Old School"?
...with my stitching gear.
Hey! Leave my Christmas deer out of this. They're all peacefull, pretending to electronically eat the dirt in my now-dead flower bed.
But they do look snazzy, I must say.
Mm...I probably should post soon. But I'm sooooo busy lately! And, I'm sick. Which is icky.
BTW, Ralphs on Saturday sounds fabulous. I gotta double-check my schedual before I confirm I can make it, but I'd certainly love to be there with you all.
PS- I'll have to Kung-fu you if you try to give me stitches, Patrick. Hiiiya!
::karate chops::
tehe digital womb. Ch-ching I am finally here. I will definitly post. In fact, I am going to start a poll.
Ralphs on Saturday sounds great.
alicia really really really reminds me of mike. read her post and you'll see what i mean.
(alicia - this is not good or bad. it just is)
not her post. her comment*
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